“It’s all just a bunch of wooshit.”
Call me the anti Card Reading Card Reader.
It’s all a bunch of wooshit. Isn’t it? Is it? Does anyone really want to know the future? Know the truth? Really? And by the way, sometimes a cigar really is just a cigar. Continue reading “Confessions Of A Reluctant Card Reader.”
I had never been the “pretty girl”. Goofy maybe. A space cadet. Lazy, slow, a daydreamer, unmotivated and all the other cliché names that go along with ADHD. I remember the day I took this picture. I remember looking at it. I’m not a 15 year old selfie snapper nor do I have an insatiable need to put myself out there. Introverted and hesitant I’m more at home behind a camera than in front of one, but this sight. This sight of myself stripped bare with no make up at age 50 plus. I didn’t flinch. I wasn’t repulsed. I noticed the lines around my eyes. I didn’t wish away the years. I merely thought to myself, “this must be how God sees me.” And then I cried. Because of course this is how God sees me. Perfect.
When you feel stuck, look at the sky. The clouds remind us that everything changes. – K. Martin
Continue reading “Sometimes Maybe We Just Need To Sit Still”
On Being Yourself.
How much time is wasted trying to be someone you were never born to be, living a life you never wanted to live. I had spent most of my life doing everything I felt with every fiber of my being not in my own best interest to make other people happy. FYI: that approach never works out for long.
You’ll know when you’re being your genuine self because you can feel it. It’s not a fake it till you make it, it’s more genuine, more gut, more cellular. You won’t be able to quite explain it. You’re comfortable, you’re confident, even if every external circumstance seems to be the opposite you’ll find your faith is at staggering heights for absolutely no apparent reason. And there it is. You.
I love taking pictures. I love nature. I love quotes. I love reading cards. I have ADHD. I have hot flashes like you would not even believe. I have a son I love to the moon. I work in tourism chartering deep sea fishing excursions off the Gulf of Mexico. I am eclectic in my tastes and they can change on a dime. I am Christian. I am Buddhist. I am Pagan. I feel blessed everyday, even the off days. I am a triple threat fire sign: Sagittarius 🏹 Leo Rising 🌻 with an Aries Moon🔥. I’m silly and I’m really weird and I’m honest and I wouldn’t change any of that. Every disappointment or heartache has brought me to a better understanding of myself as much as all the laughter in between. I believe in simplicity. I read my cards in the same manner. I advocate for ADHD because no one ever did on my behalf. I love my life, my family and more importantly myself.
Life is short. Fall in love with it. Be yourself. Do it now.
A fresh approach may lead to something surprisingly beautiful.
*just another lady with a deck of cards
Feeling in a much better place than the earlier months of the year, hello warm air and sunshine! .. so maybe if only as a reminder to myself: Buy the shoes (or the camera). Eat the cake.
People think I’m a little flaky because I seemingly live only in the absolute moment, but then why wouldn’t I. It’s the only thing that really makes sense to me. It’s not that I’m unaware or oblivious of the future. It’s not that I don’t believe that if you have the means to prepare and secure for your future you shouldn’t. But worry? Chronically? Over a time in space that is nothing more than your own imagination for better or worse.. or worse I say because it always seems to me that the people who do this obsessing tend to dwell on all the ‘could go wrongs.’ I just can’t allow myself to get that far ahead of my own self, been there, tried that, it leads to nothing more than anxiety, and over what? Over nothing. Over thin air. Crazy.
The reality is, the only reality is now.
If you buy a lottery ticket you could wake up a millionaire and that’s the reality of that. The probability may be slim to none, but the REALITY is your whole world could change overnight. I like to focus on positive reality, not dwell on negative probability, and as an extra bonus it’s easier to think this way, it’s more simplistic, and I’m all for simplicity, it makes me a much, much happier person and isn’t that the important thing at the end of the day. Happiness. Your own. Your own happiness is keystone to just about everything else, so yes, buy the shoes, eat the cake, you don’t need to live unnecessarily foolishly, but never ever allow yourself to settle for living unhappily. So this month here’s to dreaming, asking, believing and receiving.
Peace Out & Happy May🌷
Found: Broken Pieces.
‘as small as the world and as large as alone.’
“For whatever we lose, (like a you or like a me), it’s always ourselves we find at the sea.” E.E. Cummings