Feeling in a much better place than the earlier months of the year, hello warm air and sunshine! .. so maybe if only as a reminder to myself: Buy the shoes (or the camera). Eat the cake.
People think I’m a little flaky because I seemingly live only in the absolute moment, but then why wouldn’t I. It’s the only thing that really makes sense to me. It’s not that I’m unaware or oblivious of the future. It’s not that I don’t believe that if you have the means to prepare and secure for your future you shouldn’t. But worry? Chronically? Over a time in space that is nothing more than your own imagination for better or worse.. or worse I say because it always seems to me that the people who do this obsessing tend to dwell on all the ‘could go wrongs.’ I just can’t allow myself to get that far ahead of my own self, been there, tried that, it leads to nothing more than anxiety, and over what? Over nothing. Over thin air. Crazy.
The reality is, the only reality is now.
If you buy a lottery ticket you could wake up a millionaire and that’s the reality of that. The probability may be slim to none, but the REALITY is your whole world could change overnight. I like to focus on positive reality, not dwell on negative probability, and as an extra bonus it’s easier to think this way, it’s more simplistic, and I’m all for simplicity, it makes me a much, much happier person and isn’t that the important thing at the end of the day. Happiness. Your own. Your own happiness is keystone to just about everything else, so yes, buy the shoes, eat the cake, you don’t need to live unnecessarily foolishly, but never ever allow yourself to settle for living unhappily. So this month here’s to dreaming, asking, believing and receiving.
Peace Out & Happy May🌷
How old is old?
I think we carry a picture of ourselves in our head that’s just lodge in there regardless how many years or decades go by, often when I see a recent picture of myself I’ll wonder who is that woman with all those lines around her eyes that vaguely resembles me.
I can’t remember the context of the conversation but I was at my brother’s house one Sunday having dinner and had commented on being middle age. Middle Age. Oh he just laughed and laughed. What. The. Hell.
This came up at work also recently though I’m not even sure how or why.
Lil Ma’am asked me how old I’d describe myself, I said middle age, she too laughed, though in fairness she is nearly 20 years younger than me, my brother on the other hand is not.
Just exactly what then is middle age?
I consider middle age to be roughly between 45 -65 respectfully. Adulthood is 25 through 45 with the mid 30’s through 45 as full on full fledge adulthood. The golden years, 65 through, well, you know. Unless of course you ask my brother and apparently we all have one foot in the grave lest unbeknownst to me the red hot second we hit 50. I’m 53 as of December. Now this is all of course subject to change the older I get. Is that it? Do we change the aging brackets to suit ourselves as we get older? I never really thought much into this.
Age. It’s just a number. Shanti, shanti, shanti.
Aside from the weight gain and the ever losing battle to take it off and keep it off of menopause (a different kind of journey of ughness), I’m in pretty good overall health. I’m still bendy. I have good blood pressure, great cholesterol, no diabetes or pre diabetes, all of which run in the family. I haven’t smoked in 5 years and aside from that half bottle of Chardonnay last night I rarely drink. I have interests and hobbies and continue to develop new ones along the way and I have much more love and appreciation for my life than I’ve ever had in the past, a completely different level of gratitude. Don’t get me wrong, the ‘age’ card, it is handy to keep in your back pocket, i.e. “hey Hollywood, can you pick that up off the floor, you’re younger than me.” Hee hee hee. Or when the obviously 12 year old cashier asks me if I’d like my 10% senior discount, WTH. DO I LOOK 65! Then I remember my natural trés cool silver hair and platinum streaks I let grow out years ago in opt of my dyed and damaged hair, so to HER yes, actually, I suppose I DO look 65, and with that I say, “Hellz yes I’ll take that discount!”
Age. It happens. Meh.
I read cards and I know it’s met with laughs and eye rolls, but I do have a history with cards. A natural affinity. Growing up weekends were spent at grandmoms house, and on any given weekend my brothers and I could be found selecting which topped saltine cracker from the lazy susan would go well with our hot tea with milk, followed by a late night of board games and cards.
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